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Stephen

Stephen is apparently, in his own words, a loser.

He will pretend to care about someone only to suddenly go cold on them for no discernible reason, and discard them without warning.

Instead of explaining his feelings or sympathising with those of the other person, he will simply blame anyone but himself and then treat you like he actually hates you, suggesting that everything prior wasn't even real and was just an act.

Stephen is a good reminder of why I don't trust men and consider most of them to be pretty shallow and mean. Sadly, most of the good memories I have of him are now overclouded by feelings of hurt and loss.

Stephen, I'm sorry you felt you had to avoid me. I would have been happy staying friends but it seems you have moved somewhere else or vanished off the face of the earth or something.

Your friendship meant as much to me as anything else would have and I was lonely and depressed for months afterwards because you weren't there anymore.

I even started hallucinating a few men I'm pretty sure were not real. And one of them doesn't disappear or is there very often, which is very annoying because he is really annoying.

I would much rather see you than these weird-ass, annoying hallucinations that have apparently taken your place.

You may never see this, of course, and that's okay. I will probably eventually delete it, anyway.

I am doing my best to move on but the hallucination that's like a really jackass version of you sure isn't helping with that.

I really liked Stephen, who gave warmth to my icy, robotic heart; but then he broke it and that really hurt my feelings.

by Abby0190 October 22, 2023


Steve

Steve I have found to be kind of rude and mean. He is someone who is apparently quite nasty towards some people with mental illness and appears to lack empathy and compassion for them.

And yet I thought that he was someone more mature than that. I guess that I was wrong and naiive in my initial impression of him.

It's tough when you discover that someone isn't completely what or who you thought they were and you're left feeling quite hurt and disappointed. While at the same time you wish to hold no bad feelings towards them but are apparently expected by others (aka people you know) to feel gratitude that someone whom you liked gave you the time of day.

Yeah, that sucks.

I'm tired of people treating me like dirt on their shoes or a second-class citizen because some people look down on me or lack compassion for me due to problems beyond my control and expect me to accept that and not have a problem with it. Like, what the hell. No. I'm a bloody human being and I'm going to feel pretty hurt- even if I don't always express it very well or considerately- if someone hurts my feelings and is actually pretty unreasonably unkind towards me.

I wish Steve well but I do feel that he was a bit ignorant in how he treated someone suffering from mental illness.

Even if you resent someone, think they're stupid because you're ignorant of the effects of mental illness or you just think you're incompatible, there's no need to be a jerk about it. It's important to put yourself in the other person's shoes and understand why they are acting strangely rather than being rude (if you were) and judging them for it.

by Abby0190 October 30, 2023