depressed

depression: a thought the wraps itslef around you and wont let go. suffocating you, till you feel as if you no longer live. breathing becomes something you wish you could stop. noting feels right, good, or makes you happy. you feel alone, alone no matter how many people you surrond yourself with. you want to die, curl up in a ball and dissapear into the floor, the only thought on your mind is death and your funeral. you dream of the day your one wish could come true. you feel darkness all the time, ther is no differnce between day and night anymore. you cant feel anymore, your numb, you ache for soem sort of human feeling, but theres nothing, cutting is the only thing that almost keeps you sane. and eveyone wants to take it away. dont they understand? its the one thing thatr i look forward to, the one thig that keeps me alive, without it i will kill myslef. no. i will kill myslef either way. and when i dont succeed they lock me up saying that i can be let loose in society! my depression is to big and strong now, theres nothing you can do anymore to make it stop. the only way is death, and thats the only way i know that for sure this pain will truly end.

Im so depressed, i just want to sink into the floor.

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