High School

An institution which ends up destroying the very core of you by the time you graduate. It is not the mere fact that your workload can be a pain in the ass, or that one is shoved carelessly into a clique.

Its not about the bullying, the drama, or the mental anguish...this is to be expected for anyone. The transformation from beginning to the end of high school is unbelievable. I entered high school happy, and i didn't give a shit about the world. High School takes the world and flips it around a bit to fuck things up. Chances are, the vast majority of us, are not the elitists who breeze through the four years on a possible football scholarship and daddy's money. You find out what the real world is like.
You find out that attempts at having a relationship with the opposite sex have become so scrutinized by society and your peers that having a relationship isn't even worth it. And nobody is going to understand whatever the fuck you may be feeling, its all on your own to figure it out.
You find out that, lets face it, the majority of the world does not want you to succeed. You find out that you are a pawn in society. You find out that you're just a number, that you have little value, that you are just part of some masochistic system where the elite always rule, and, no matter how hard you try, you are still just an inconceivable spec. You find out that your life is just going to be a rehash of what happened in high school, and no matter what you try to do, there is no escape.

I have graduated high school. I am now in my first year of college. I am trying to figure out how I can get more money so my savings account passes a peon amount. I have a growing nicotine addiction because I need something to relive my stress during the day. I have come to the conclusion that I don't care if I get cancer. All relationships have ended in utter failure. I have become a misanthrope, I trust noone, thus putting a strain on future social activity. I wonder everyday why I am trying on the exterior when I'm not even trying for anybody but myself. I see my life as having little value. I have insomnia and can't sleep, and I spend my time doing things like typing out this definition for such a flawed institution. I went from a happy, carefree kid, to this, whatever you want to call me now. And the sad thing is, I have no solution to this problem. I have no solution to how our youth are turning out, nor do I have a solution on how to fix our society.

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