Elisa

oh, i have a lot of things to say. Shes the sweetest and smartest and beautiest girl in the entire world. Sometimes i feel like i fall in love with her, but its not love, its something more powerful and stronger than it, something that i cant describe in only stupid words. She lit up my life when i was at my worst, and still does. I feel so stupid when i talk to her because shes so much pretty and beauty and she looks like a goddes and she has always a super cute outfit and a cool style, something that i could never have. Shes so much better than me and everyone else in the world. I want only her with me, to hold my hand or simply having her near me. Shes a cold person, she doesnt talk with a lot of emotion in her words but deep inside i think shes very emotional. And she has the cutest smile i've ever seen. I feel so jealous when shes with other ppl bc i want her with me always but i know it i very wrong and that she cant be always with me, so i accept it. I love her so much. When i was at my worst i cried only because i was scared to lose her if i killed myself. I love you Eli, youre my favorite person, my special girl, the only girl i could love platonically in my stupid life. I love you, please dont ever leave me alone.

X: Whos Elisa?
Me: Elisa whas my first love (/p)...i'd like to remember it that way