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Every day, minute, SECOND, is painful. You have hate and pain running through your veins constantly that it controls you. Every cell in your body hates your existence and screams at you to end it all. You constantly think and wonder WHY!? Why were you the one who ended up in this life. Why did you grow up to be the miserable one.
Every night is long and dark, as you lie awake and feel too afraid to sleep, but in too much pain to remain conscious. Every morning you wake up and the familiar dark thoughts envelop you as you realize you have to exist for another horrible day.
It is a feeling of absolute loneliness. You feel that you have no one, yet everyone else has everyone. You look around at all the people you know enjoying friends and family and relationships andwonder why you're alone. Just so utterly alone.
You constantly think "Why am I still here? What am I doing?"... You wish you could just exist in a world of sleep where you didn't really have to live or think or breathe. Nothing makes sense to you or gives you comfort except for the concept of non-existence... Suicide. Suicide is the only thing that makes sense to you. Non-existence seems like the only sensible solution. You despise every second you exist on Earth.
Its like looking at the world through a camera lens, but the lens has a filter on it to make every single thing you see and experience look disgusting, terrible, dark, awful, hateful. depression
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When the whole world is one giant inside joke that you're not a part of.
Depression
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A scary enough place to visit and I hate having to live there.
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A really really fucked up mental illness/ mental disorder, usually accompanied by anxiety disorder which causes a person to have an uncontrollable paranoia. Depression is a lack of hormones and imbalance of chemicals in the brain. Depression makes a person weak, lazy, and very very pessimist. This shit should not be underestimated, It drains all your energy and your vision of your life.
Common Myths/ Misconception:
Depression can be cured through will and positive thinking
Depression is only in your brain, it is not a mental illness go to a bar have sex then you will be cured.
Depression is just an excuse for being lazy
MAJOR BULLSHIT! Depression is an actual MENTAL ILLNESS.
Because of depression Dave never go to a party.
Because of depression Alfred didn't apply for a job.
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When you don't understand anything. When Life seems hopeless, pointless, and exhausting. You want to punish yourself. You feel helpless. No one understands. You just want to end everything, and go to sleep and never wake up. You hate. Yourself. Your friends. Your family. You hate with you everything. Your eyes become empty, and people don't care. They don't listen.
Today I stayed in bed for as long as I could, until mom and dad made me get up. I didn't want to move, didn't want to eat, didn't want to talk. Everything seemed so pointless. I think I might be depressed.
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Every other definition sums it up
These examples of depression are getting me really depressed
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Pointlessness, a constand feeling of being horrified beyond beleif, an intense feeling of the absolute end. Waking up and not being able to get out of bed, every second of everyday is a battle to survive your horrifying feelings. You can't think straight, it's not about personal strength or being weak, it is an illness that swallows your life. You are trapped in the coldest, most pointless hell. You feel the immence indifference of the world. Your world stands still and every object you see, every person you see, sends you a feeling that you are worthless and no body cares. Mental terror- seems like it will never ever ever go away. You want to do something about it but you are tied up. It is anger without the enthusiasm. Sadness without the comfort of tears. You just stare, and feel the most hollow, scarey feeling, your spirit dies, your passion dies, the joy you once had seems like somebody elses. You want to duck tape yourself to your bed, never eat, and smoke a pack of cigarettes. Nothing, even comforting words from your mother and supportive friends come across as overwhelmingly meaningless. Every sound is annoying, melodies of songs scare you. Smells make you weak. You force down your food, you force out your words, going to the bathroom is a chore. You want to rott and you hate every second of it. You realize how it feels to be the homeless, to have no heart, to have to much of a heart. You self sabotage yourself with every thought and word, you don't grow until afterwards, while you are in it you drop to the bottom and can't figure anything out and if you try you fall faster. Going outside out of your apartment would take extreme courage. You look at the ground as you walk, you don't look up cause your spirit will crumble, you want to be normal, you want to be a good person, but you can't cause you are SICK, just as sick as someone with cancer or aids but it is in your head, you can't look at anyone in the eye, you stare at there neck and hope the moment is over soon. All you can do is bare down, and eat the shit sandwich that is your life. Day after day, night after night repeat, right when you think you may be feeling a little better, you are hit even harder with eternal pointlessness and horror. POINTLESS!, ugly, the word'sad' doesn't come close. The word 'depressed' sounds like a holiday. For someone who hasn't felt it before a tiny taste of it would be unbeleivable, the worst feelings all rolled into one big indifferent horror movie, with a really weak plot, with bad production, pitiful acting, the movie lasts for months and months, and you can't walk out. watch and wait longer than you thought possible, then watch and wait more with a subtle yet intense mental anguish. Hang on................
How are you doing?
Not very good, i am depressed, and i no longer feel i am living.
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