Difficult(1)

I would have stuck to the conventional word, 'Hard' but we all know the first thought that would pop into most of your minds (gutter) on seeing it, thus it's safer to stick to something that sounds more adult ish, ie difficult.

Literally referring to something which is not easy to do, difficult specifically does not even begin to describe what it's like for two constants to go through, for most of their shared life.

Right from waiting for the days between their next trip, to disappear so that they can be reunited, every day of the countdown is difficult. It gives hope yet doesn't make time go by any faster. Speaking of trips, difficult is what the end of every intimate every moment feels like, thinking that it may be amongst the last for a while, if not much longer .
Difficult is feeling it, discussing it and despite gaining support in the process but yet having no solution to it.

Difficult is The last night knowing that it will not just be everything its supposed to be and more, but that it won't take place the next day and that no night till the next meeting, will compare to it.

Difficult is packing up to leave on the last day after knowing how great it felt to unpack on the first and how unfair it is to be packing up already, when it feels like everything just began.

Example- "You shouldn't miss your flight, we should leave"
"Yes, but I want to stay for a bit longer"
Me too, but that's only going to make it more difficult(1)

They leave immediately

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