Clean myself up

For what? What would be the point? If I don't get the credit or the money there is no reason to continue living. So I can be the most attractive person trapped in a job he hate working with people he hates? I ALREADY AM THAT. Even WITHOUT cleaning myself up. Look at these fucking slogs! Can't get a new job because my car won't hold oil or coolant. I literally work at the only place in walking distance that will hire me. Can't afford a new car. Can't make enough money to save for a new car. Can't even afford to pay my bills on time. And then you have the YouTube VERMIN talking shit like they aren't absolute fucking parasites. The worse trash of the fucking planet. Slowly but surely my options dwindle until the only remaining option is stab a kid, hop on the overpass, and jump off a bridge.

Hym "Clean myself up? For what? What for? What would be the actual point of doing that you stupid fuck? Will it get me the money I need for the work the I did? No? So just stab the kids and kill myself right? The cops can clean my room when they come to investigate."