existential dead

Taking existential dread one step forward. The feeling when you're in a continuous existential crisis so you just go numb and "die" on the inside.

Just like you experience existential dread you also experience existential dead.

Sophie was in the final year of her STEM course and had realized that she would've been better off studying business but three years of chemistry had killed her on the inside and she was now going through existential dead.