suicidally motivation

the mood you are in where you don't care about life just enough to where you are able to do new things, that you were originally afraid to do.

Person 1: "Hey want to go bungee jumping. "
Person 2: "Yeah sure just have to wait for the suicidally motivation to kick in."
Person 1: "Should I get you a therapist? because that should not be the way for you to do things."
Person 2: "No, plus the debt would bury me before I could."