Ax

What do you call something that always wants more that's always searching for something better thats never satisfied constantly confusing themselves and other people what do you call something that makes you feel something so strong and then tells you that you shouldn't feel that way what do you call something that eats at you inside and then spits you out and puts you in its mouth again until its teeth are cracking from chewing what happens when the teeth are gone and the hands are wrinkly and cracked and rigid and cant pick the remains up again, you call it ax

Ax why do you not allow yourself to just be why do you have to make things hard why do you try to force yourself to feel things you wont feel things you never felt i know its not helping you i know its selfish its wrong to force you into something just because i want it but i love you even when no one else does even when you tell me no one else will i love you and i want you to feel my love and i dont know how to show it because no one ever showed me how to but i love you i love you ax and the day i figure out how to express it in actions ill do it til im in my casket