Alonement

Alonement: that feeling you get when you start to believe you were just meant to be alone, and you're kinda okay with it, because you know you're abit weird, and the relationships you've been in before have been very hard and sometimes abusive, so maybe this will be the best way for you to enjoy life. Live strong little one

My alonement is really making itself known.

I'm really feeling my alonement.

I've become lost in my alonement.

Is alonement even a good new word? Idk.