Mateo

A boy who I like, who I've been in love with for ever. He has many gigs liking him which makes. Me wildly jealous but I never say anything or I try not too because he has a girlfriend (who doesn't really treat him right) and she gets mad very easily when like any girl talks to him. When I see him my heart drops and flutters at the same time, I have so much to say but I can't say it because I always lose. My voice around him, I try to act confident and care free but the thing is that I really really like him. He has got quite a big head from all the girls that like him even though he says he doesn't like all that attention, and I don't want to just be another girl that likes him. He has issues that he's opened upto me about who h is awesome and I always want to help him and make sure he's always happy but he always act all manly and carefree which is okay it's him. Anyway whenever I'm around him it's like I can't breathe but he gives me confidence... I feel depressed but I also feel amazing, and sometimes. I wonder if this is what the other girls feel..... He probably has heard this a million to. Ed. And I feel stupid for writing this but I just wish i could tell him without ruining our friendship.....

I like this boy mateo who all the other girls like, I've tried to stop liking him a million times but I cannot. I don't want to be just another girl that likes him, he kills. Me but I love it.

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