depression

The word depression is a strong word it’s like a darkness a cold alone feeling that takes forever to get over. You just want to be the way you feel, you want to be alone. You can’t understand that the world is a hard place to be if you don’t surround yourself with the right people… Being put down by yourself and by others hurts so much so when you find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated you don’t know what to do..After a while you get anxious and you just get worse the darkness gets darker… You shut yourself out you have no idea why you put yourself through it all and you get scared of leaving your bedroom and if you do it’s for the shortest amounts of time that you can.You feel like there’s no one to turn too.. You distrust your beliefs and go down a dark hole and find it’s a really deep hole that you have to fight to get out of the spot you’re in… But the more you try the darker the hole gets because you’re scared to let the fear come back into your life but being scared of fear coming into your life you make it worse. The darkness has taken over everything. Your grades, your social life, your friends, and even your family. You feel like there's no way out... You're alone in the world..

In a deep depression.