Empathetic Suicide Idealization is wanting, thinking, or acting on committing suicide but fearing how others may react to your death or caring about how they perceive you before/during/after committing suicide.
Guy 1: I love my family but I donât want to leave them grieving whatever they saw in me.
Guy 2: You are experiencing Empathetic Suicide Idealization you want to die but can't stand the fact that people will be affected and grieve your loss.