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You
are the cascading light

over horizons
of shadowy peaks and valleys
fleeting glimpses
bright glare
breaking the surface of deep water
emerging to verdant life
that only we see

Your whole self, how?

capable of affecting me
golden warmth
take my breath
melt the world

931 ...you

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I told you (and myself) I wasn’t going to initiate contact, but I didn’t want that. I miss the small ways we would check in with each other. I miss you. I don’t understand where we are. Please help me.

You are so intelligent, I love that about you. I’m sure you know who this is, that our last conversation was 9/28. I won’t conceal my messages, I want you to know who I am. Nothing hidden, I’ve told you about each time I posted a definition.

I hope you also know how I feel. I have so much affection and respect for you. My heart opens even knowing you exist. I’ve never begged a man like I did in that email, begged just to write to you. I can’t believe myself. It is easy to go there and be vulnerable with you, but sometimes it hurts.

I felt absolutely insane when I read your reply. Platonic relationship, or we shouldn’t be in contact…and you didn’t intend to suggest otherwise 🥺 I have trouble reconciling that with what I see on UD. I have an even harder time reconciling it with what happens when our eyes meet, or we talk, or smile, or touch hands. That feeling, connection, it wasn’t real? Why balk when I want to be closer? This is just me, I want to be gentle and loving to you no matter what, you can trust me. Help me understand.

I lose words when I try to explain how I feel. Like we recognize each other on a molecular level. Electric and deep. A knowledge there is so much to explore

931 Possibilities…

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503

I misunderstood your message
Please be a pest to me :)
Hate that I missed you. Why only riddles on UD?

We're both busy, and we don't have to hide from each other
Not sure you understand how much I want to see you, to know you
My only agenda is to feel what it is like to be around each other
Doesn't require a long conversation (any conversation?) or physical contact
I will try to not make you uncomfortable with my directness

I'm super nervous to see you
It's been a while and I can't possibly live up to your perception of me

I have such deep feelings for you, I want to starting know each other
We've held back and kept serious, half-pretend
What if we find we're not compatible? Or what if we find something amazing?

Both kind of scare me, but I need to know if this only lives online.

Need to see if we can be that vulnerable, if we can be safe
If you want to give me something, when you are ready, the best gift would be to contact me outside of UD

Every time I see something from or about you I want to explode
You looked so good in recent one, screenshot now hidden on my phone
Eloquent and meaningful but I was totally distracted by your eyes, lips, neck...

It used to make some sense to go through this alone, it doesn't now. We can talk or message, please

503 Maybe stupid, but I wanted to be there
I looked for you

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