Leon my bean

So it may have been taken down now but on the 6th of April 2023 I wrote about my then boyfriend leon I loved leon but the sunset is beautiful isn't it? Why did it have to be this way I don't know but I wish I was a better person and that I could let go of my emotions. I don't know if he ever loved me but we were together from 27/03/23 - 27/05/23 (UK system) it's been 25 days since "the end" and each day I've thought about him, it's been in a way a quick 25 days because even though we were together from winter to the early summer that time felt longer than now due to the fact I didn't stop missing him when he wasn't around.
P. S: I still miss him and I wait for him but I've had to come to terms with the fact I've spent so long on a losing game.

I guess I've gone from saying Leon my bean to,

I lost my bean.

Leon my beans

It's been 105 days. His girlfriend broke up with him, I tried helping him through it but only four days after she broke up with him I blurted out that I still love him and how I hate myself for it. He tried to be nice but I know I've gone and ruined things all over again. I miss him so much.

Leon, could you please get my beans?....Leon! Leon my beans !!!