Till

A boy who I cared (care) about truly. I don’t know why he pushed me away but I only hope he is truly comfortable with that.

I wish we could’ve watched whatever Star Wars movies and/or series that you like and that you would’ve also watched my favourites with me. I’d have enjoyed it too. Whether you would’ve? I will never know.

I thought Till to be a sweetheart and I cannot rid of the feeling that he truly is one - despite the pain he has caused me - I cannot help but care for him.

I, selfishly, hope the hours I spent crying in childish grief (to the friendship we could’ve had) could make you feel a degree of guilt or some form of regret or even remorse. And I wish I wasn’t likely to have been the only one out of the two of us who cared for the other.

I doubt I will come across another in that way, who I felt as instantly connected to as I did to Till and I regret that I must’ve messed it up in some way; even if blaming myself feels worse as he is equally to blame in disregarding my attempts to only communicate with him.

All I wanted was to ensure that you were honestly okay.

Yet you only pushed me away.

“ Till is a boy who is easy to love and that’s what stung the most. ”

“ IFHY - Tyler the Creator ”
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