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I never hated you. I couldn’t. That’s why I was very careful with not leaving any disrespectful codes. But I knew when I was keeping a distance, I was hurting you. It hurt me too and pushed me forward to do things to finish all. Recently, you thought I was playing with your heart. I was not. I am sorry for both hurting you and making you feel played. It was not my intention. When things were not making much progress, I took a promise to myself that I would be completely done with my past life. Then I can express my love without the past lingering at the back of my mind. It was a sad day when I realized how you felt like you were played. You of all people should know I am quite straight forward in expressing how I feel (may be not in person. It’s hard when people all around). Just know that I don’t feel guilty in loving you. I was confused why this love in me. But never felt guilty. Yes, I doubted your love before. That is when I was in a bad place without sleep and couldn’t receive any love because of thought of getting heartbroken even from friends. I do feel sad thinking we cannot spend life together. When you told about your new phase in your life, I had mixed feelings. why life is keeping us more separate. I accept that. But it cannot tell me to stop loving you. 6684

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I never stopped loving you. Yes..kept a distance. I wanted complete freedom from the past and from the existing surroundings to love you completely. I wanted to feel the love from you and be 100% sure. One sided love is self destructive 6684

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You never left my heart. My love is not perfect. Also, I don’t know what a perfect love is. All I know is I love you every day. I will leave a code about you being silent. That’s more accurate to what I feel. I know you love me too. I can live with that thought forever. We both are not good at expressing it. I will continue to try with some codes written by others. Not ideal but some are close to what comes to my mind. We are not the first after all. Take care of yourself. 6684

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1. I never hated you. I couldn’t. That’s why I was very careful with not leaving any disrespectful codes. But I knew when I was keeping a distance, I was hurting you. It hurt me so much daily. it pushed me forward to do things to finish what I had to. Recently, you thought I was playing with your heart. I was not. I am sorry for both hurting you and making you feel played. It was not my intention. When things were not making much progress, I took a promise to myself that I would be completely done with my past life. Then I can express my love without the past lingering at the back of my mind. It was a sad day when I realized how you felt like you were played. You of all people should know I am quite straight forward in expressing how I feel (may be not in person. It’s hard when people all around). Just know that I don’t feel guilty in loving you. I was confused why this love in me. But never felt guilty. Yes, I doubted your love before. That is when I was in a bad place without sleep and couldn’t trust any love because of thought of getting heartbroken even from friends. I do feel sad thinking we cannot spend life together. When you told about your new phase in your life, I had mixed feelings. why life is keeping us more separate than it already is. I accept that. But it cannot tell me to stop loving you. 6684

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1. I never hated you. I couldn’t. That’s why I was very careful with not leaving any disrespectful codes. But I knew when I was keeping a distance, I was hurting you. It hurt me so much daily. it pushed me forward to do things to finish what I had to. Recently, you thought I was playing with your heart. I was not. I am sorry for both hurting you and making you feel played. It was not my intention. When things were not making much progress, I took a promise to myself that I would be completely done with my past life. Then I can express my love without the past lingering at the back of my mind. It was a sad day when I realized how you felt like you were played. You of all people should know I am quite straight forward in expressing how I feel (may be not in person. It’s hard when people all around). Just know that I don’t feel guilty in loving you. I was confused why this love in me. But never felt guilty. Yes, I doubted your love before. That is when I was in a bad place without sleep and couldn’t trust any love because of thought of getting heartbroken even from friends. I do feel sad thinking we cannot spend life together. When you told about your new phase in your life, I had mixed feelings. why life is keeping us more separate than it already is. I accept that. But it cannot tell me to stop loving you. 6684

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On Dec 21, 2023, at 1:44 PM, Sindhu Krishnankutty <sindhu.krishnankutty2@gmail.com> wrote:


1. I never hated you. I couldn’t. That’s why I was very careful with not leaving any disrespectful codes. But I knew when I was keeping a distance, I was hurting you. It hurt me so much daily. it pushed me forward to do things to finish what I had to. Recently, you thought I was playing with your heart. I was not. I am sorry for both hurting you and making you feel played. It was not my intention. When things were not making much progress, I took a promise to myself that I would be completely done with my past life. Then I can express my love without the past lingering at the back of my mind. It was a sad day when I realized how you felt like you were played. You of all people should know I am quite straight forward in expressing how I feel (may be not in person. It’s hard when people all around). Just know that I don’t feel guilty in loving you. I was confused why this love in me. But never felt guilty. Yes, I doubted your love before. That is when I was in a bad place without sleep and couldn’t trust any love because of thought of getting heartbroken even from friends. I do feel sad thinking we cannot spend life together. When you told about your new phase in your life, I had mixed feelings. why life is keeping us more separate than it already is. I accept that. But it cannot tell me to stop loving you. 6684

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2. You never left my heart. My love is not perfect. Also, I don’t know what a perfect love is. All I know is I love you every day. I will leave a code about you being silent. That’s more accurate to what I feel. I know you love me too. I can live with that thought forever. We both are not good at expressing it. I will continue to try with some codes written by others. Not ideal but some are close to what comes to my mind. We are not the first after all. Take care of yourself. 6684

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