Depression

Depression to me is the feeling of hopelessness. The feeling that no matter what you do or say it is never good enough. Objecting yourself to self doubt and second guessing every decision you make. Every moment you are on the verge of tears, if someone says hello or asks how you are, it's in that split second you start to speak that you shut down. Mind, body and soul shut down to protect yourself from breaking. Showing everyone around you how weak you are. A song on the radio that you love causes you pain to hear. Crying so hard and long that you can't breathe anymore. Looking at your loved ones who are concerned and telling them it is just a bad day you will be okay, knowing that this is just one of many but you hold your head up high so as not to ruin your relationships.

I shut down at work because my depression snuck in and caused me to feel horrible about myself.