darkmess

Darkmess - not darkness but a dark mess

Darkmess - noun or adjective
After a toxic encounter with another, perhaps you feel gut sick and darkmess

After an encounter with a toxic friend, toxic lover, toxic parent, or anyone who is abusive nasty negative hurtful darkmess comes.

Deeply hurting or in pain you feel it is a dark mess.
When you share your story with another you feel your discussion goes to darkness rather than to light and happy.

It is a dark mess, a darkmess.
I am in the middle of darkmess

Darkmess - adjective
I am feeling down, low, hurt, darkmess, deep in a dark mess...deep in despair,
Perhaps a state of HELL - feeling low in a messed up situation

In the middle of a dark mess you are dealing with....a darkmess.

Hell is a noun
Hellish is an adjective

Darkmess used as a noun: I am in darkmess. I am in a darkmess.
Darkmess used as an adjective: My situation is darkmess...with this hurtful monster person

Noun
Sorry to burden you with my darkmess but i am having a difficult lesson with a monster person.
I know you might prefer a happy fun conversation but i am struggling with some darkmess.

I realize i am in the middle of darkmess, and so i will go for a walk in the park, in nature for lift and feeling better.
A state of darkmess may be lifted by the light of understanding, the light of courage, the light of belief.