subtlecide

The act of deliberately engaging in unhealthy/self-destructive behavior in an effort to expedite one's own death, but to do so in societally acceptable or neglected ways. Subtlecide is portmanteau of "subtle" and "suicide", or to "subtly work towards suicide". Subtlecide is a strategy generally used by the terminally mentally ill to achieve death without bringing unwanted attention to oneself, such as pressure or disapproval from friends and family, or involuntary psychiatric commitment. Common methods of subtlecide include tobacco use, drug and alcohol use/abuse, reckless/promiscuous sexual activity, among many others.

Last time I tried to commit suicide I was hospitalized and then incarcerated, so from now on I'll only work on my subtlecide.